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Saturday, December 25th, 2004
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well today is chirstmas day
i got some of the most awesome gifts
but got the most depressing one of all
I put in my new motley crue cd and cranked it up to browse the Motley Crue Shout Boards
I read this new post about tour dates and found out Motley Crue is touring Here
I just off the chair and was crying i was soo happy
the Band was coming a half hour away from me!
i yell too my mom that i can offically see the band that influenced me soo much
she asked how much the tickets were and i said 70 dollars and over
and she said my dad wont be working and there will be no way to get that kind of extra cash
i dont want anyone to feel sorry for me but i want to go so bad
donate a dollar or 10 cents
i want this soo bad im going to sit out side hte mall and sing tomorrow
im desprate
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Monday, December 20th, 2004
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ADD ME ON MY NEW LJ!
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) heroin_diary
yep
its Named after Nikki Sixx's bio the Heroin Diaries lol
add it fuckers
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Friday, December 10th, 2004
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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after watching larry king live last nite my eyes keep threatening to cry on me.
i was watching larry king because leo dicaprio was oma nd hes hot and there was nothing else one
but hte last 15 mins
larry said there was a syuprise and then it was Motley crue backstage before the concert.THey all looked so awesome and happy.it was horrible for me.I just started crying.i couldnt control it.It was horrible.they went on stage and started playing thenit faded out and larry king ended,
.I cried for a long while.Thinking about it and today isnt any better.moping around the house.doing everyhtng half heartly.*sigh* nothting i can do. buti thought i could handle this better
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Monday, December 6th, 2004
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When i found out motley crue was going to tour again
my heart skipped a beat and my eyes teared up
i jumped up and screamed
This band is the reason i want to be a musician
they make you see the dark times nad hte best times of being a musician
Their songs give me the chills and make me want to cry wheni think about how they are ending theyre career together
and if i dont get to see thme
i dont knwo what ill do
they got me through the times when i thought i had to no reason to live
they made me get back into singing
and i learnt more in year then most people in their lives
They bought me back to life
and made me discover a whole new side of music
music beyound the britney spear's and snpog dogs
they made it ok to be differnt
i feel like im writing a letter to someone
but its jsut a letter to myself
when i get crushed and knwo that i wont see this band live
cuz my dads not working and he cant afford to send me to a concert and we need me to sell something so we can eat something other than blogna or hamburger
i have to remember this isnt my fault
and my fustration can come out in songs or on my guitar
i guess its hard
after soo many years of this bull shit
i need to get away so bad
start over
where i can send money home for my parents
but for now im stuck
in my bitterness
listening to the band i want to see live soo band
with no money in my possesion and parents feeling sorry for me
i dont know sympathy i just need to get away
as i finish writing this letter to myself
i want someone to hug me and say im perfect and no one will ever hurt me
but no one will
wheni find this hidden away saved somewhere on this computer ill be sad and wonder what i was thinking and feeling and remember how bad i felt for my family and my little brother
but its okay
it will all be ok
wont it?
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Sunday, December 5th, 2004
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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
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* Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you ''like it that way.''
* Drum on every available surface.
* Sing the Batman theme incessantly.
* Staple papers in the middle of the page.
* Produce a rental video consisting entirely of dire FBI copy warnings.
* Sew anti-theft detector strips into people's backpacks.
* Write the surprise ending to a novel on its first page.
* Specify that your drive-through order is ''to go.''
* Set alarms for random times.
* Honk and wave to strangers.
* Dress only in clothes colored Hunter's Orange.
* Change channels five minutes before the end of every show.
* Tape pieces of ''Sweating to the Oldies'' over climactic parts of rental movies.
* ONLY TYPE IN UPPERCASE.
* only type in lowercase.
* dont use any punctuation either.
* Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.
* Pay for your dinner with pennies.
* Repeat everything someone says, as a question.
* Light road flares on a birthday cake.
* Wander around the restaurant, asking other diners for their parsley.
* Push all the flat Lego pieces together tightly.
* At the laundromat, use one dryer for each of your socks.
* As much as possible, skip rather than walk.
* Stand over someone's shoulder, mumbling, as they read.
* Leave your turn signal on for fifty miles.
* Drive half a block.
* Name your dog ''Dog.''
* Ask people what gender they are.
* Reply to everything someone says with ''That's what YOU think.''
* Lick the filling out of all the Oreos, and place the cookie parts back in the tray.
* Forget the punchline to a long joke, but assure the listener it was a ''real hoot''.
* Routinely handcuff yourself to furniture, informing the curious that you don't want to fall off ''in case the big one comes''.
* Follow a few paces behind someone, spraying everything they touch with a can of Lysol.
* Lie obviously about trivial things such as the time of day.
* Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
* Leave your Christmas lights up and lit until September.
* Change your name to John Aaaaasmith for the great glory of being first in the phone book. Claim it's a Hawaiian name, and demand that people pronounce each A.
* Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.
* Chew on pens that you've borrowed.
* Invent nonsense computer jargon in conversations, and see if people play along to avoid the appearance of ignorance.
* Wear a LOT of cologne.
* Ask to ''interface'' with someone.
* Listen to 33rpm records at 45rpm speed, and claim the faster speed is necessary because of your ''superior mental processing.''
* Sing along at the opera.
* Mow your lawn with scissors.
* At a golf tournament, chant ''swing-batatatatatata-suhWING-batter!''
* Finish all your sentences with the words ''in accordance with prophesy.''
* Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.
* Ask your co-workers mysterious questions, and scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about ''psychological profiles.''
* Stare at static on the TV and claim you can see a ''magic picture''.
* Select the same song on the jukebox fifty times.
* Scuff your feet on a dry, shaggy carpet and seek out victims.
* Do not add any inflection to the end of your sentences, producing awkward silences with the impression that you'll be saying more any moment.
* Never make eye contact.
* Never break eye contact.
* Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears.
* Construct elaborate ''crop circles'' in your front lawn.
* Construct your own pretend ''tricorder'' and ''scan'' people with it, announcing the results.
* Give a play-by-play account of a person's every action in a nasal Howard Cossell voice.
* Holler random numbers while someone is counting.
* Make appointments for the 31st of September.
* Invite lots of people to other people's parties.
* Send fifty copies of this list to everyone you know.
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well i went over to Cee Cees
she had a xmas gift for me that she made me open...wel shee basically opend it herself.ive never had a person care so much about giving me a gift.Its crazy but shes a true friend..a lil odd but good.so she got me this Boys 101 thing im like uhhhh thanks...*its something i would have wanted if i was ten* but it was fun being all lame and filling it out about some random ppl we liked 4 years ago haha
she got me some lip smackers and a picture thingy that has pstars in it and a funky purple ring..
i took off my coat and shes like OMG I wanna be Goth like you
im like O_O mkkkkkay.......
im not goth
ahha
but yeah
in other news
Motley is having their press conference in the next few days
Can you say HELL YES!
haha
im uberly excited
I LOVE MOTLEY CRUE and it would be AWESOME to see them live ONCE in my life
so yeah
thats my update
Keep Rockn In the Free World
Yelah Ikkin
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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lol
anywhoo
tonite my mom and my bro have gone out
mom is at Bingo
Tate is at a Dance
so no lil gurlies calling *thank fucking god*
i havent been sewing much
i havent been writing much or singing
ive just sucked
not doing anything other than school and sitting on my fatt ass
ahha
but yeah
I dont anything for christmas
i hate gifts
i feel selfish
i just like giving
but my parents dont accept that
instead buy Nikki something she doesnt want at all
LAME
jeez
but yeah
keep rockin in the free world
<3
-Nik
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Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
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i have discovered the joys of the vegetable thins
yummy crackers that dont make you feel guitaly about eating the whole box
Hahaha
todays been an off day
i feel so blah right now
but i got ALOT done
cuz ya know i ROCK haha
im such a DORK
but yeah i want to be better i hatebeing sick
its gross and icky
but i hopefully will be getting a new bed
the ones my parents want arent ever in stock so i think we'r gonna get jack sized beds *hahha get its jack,King,Queen,lmfao*..Lame..
but yeah
i need a job
but i need my name change
and my birth certificate
goddamnit >_<
so yaah
i hopei can afford to send out my xmas cards and stuff
cuz like it would suck if i had to wait till after xmas
:(
so yeah
toodles!
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Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
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haha
i saw this in a person LJ *sprry cant remember who*
i so had to do it haha
i thought of a bobby looking person when i go the results haha
any whoo
im bored
but im gettng better
my dreams are less messed up haha
any whoo
yeah
<33
-nikki-
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Monday, November 29th, 2004
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| Mood: |  embarrassed. |
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godamnit
this sickness is fuckingup my mind
im having messed up dreams about ryan telling me i look like his brother and vivid sex with amir *shudders*
ugh
i need to be un sick
NOW
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Saturday, November 27th, 2004
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| Time: | 4:32 pm. |
| Mood: | crappy. |
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i am stuck with orange hair till tommorrow
butmy dads worker buddies are coming over tonite
so yeah
*hides*
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Friday, November 26th, 2004
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well tonite i had an auditon for a talent search
it was like the first one in 4 years
so i was pretty nervous sitting around waiting to be called in
there was 5 judges and they evaluate you on pure talent and potential.the prizes are a 60-0 mic package and other stuff
but
it was the first time i was ever one a stage with the lights and the sound and it was awesome
it made me feel at ease right away and after i left i just had this rush
i was soo happy
whether i make it not i dont care but i was an awesome experience
the person who escorted me down to the stafge said that he loved my voice and my song * i played oene i wrote*
and too keep going not matter what cuz i rock
haha
and yeah thought id share  im uberly hyper now
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Thursday, November 25th, 2004
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heres the latest Letter from Mr Sixx
ALOT OF ISSUES
BUT,SOME PROGRESS.
WE ( ALL) GOT ON THE PHONE OVER A WEEK AGO AND IT FELT GOOD.
WE TALKED ABOUT HOW THIS PROMOTER IN ENGLAND CAME TO US WITH ALL THIS INFO ON HOW THERES A HUGE BUZZ ON THE CRUE( WORLDWIDE) AND IS PUSHING FOR US TO TOUR.((AGAIN ITS THE FANS WHO CREATE THE EXCITMENT FOR A BAND)
WE ALL AGREED TO GET TOGETHER IN THE FLESH AND DID A FEW THINGS THAT WE WILL BE ABLE TO LOOK AT IN A COUPLE WEEKS.
NO PROMISES...LETS JUST SEE WHERE THIS LEADS...(I DONT WANNA GET YOUR HOPES UP TOO HIGH)
THANKS...MORE TO COME....
SIXX
ahhhhhhh
im soo excited
i jsut cant hide
i know i know i knwo
i want tooo
ahoooo
ahoooo
lollol
god Nikki sixx is hott
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Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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new icon!
made it myself
nothing fancy but all my interests in an icon
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Monday, November 22nd, 2004
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maky so the story of motley crue was on tonite..
ive seen this like 67458473684 times and like yeah it still makes me all giddy to watch it and hear the boys of motley talk about the past present and the future (or lack there of) so then half waythru the show it hit me.
The first time i see motley is going to be the the last time the ever tour
I just starte tearing up
they have been such an influence on my life.
i dont want them to stop ever!
it just sucks soo badd
when i see them knwo im just gonna be so happy ill be crying the whole set
cheers to Motley Crue
The First Hair Rock BAnd and the Last!
*runs to bathroom to cry*
*gives rock sign*
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Saturday, November 20th, 2004
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haha tonite i watched Shrek 2 and White Chicks..BOTH MOVIES ROCK!!
yeah
i finshed to skirts last nite
they bvoth rock
ones an off center striped wrap around skirt its preppy but could pull off as punk or 80s lol
the other is a plaid and black wrap around skirt its very punk/goth
yep
i sound uber like a weirdo giving hair advice but i love hair its another passion
right now my lifes like
FASHION.
Hair.
Music
when it should be
MUSIC
FASHION
HAIR
ugh
i so need to work on my music
ive been avoiding it
i hate making a big deal of writing or something
i just like dpoing it when theres no pressure instead of everyone asking soo have you writteen anything? can i hear it? Who cares if it isnt done play it
i feel like screaming FUCK OFF...
but i cant so yeah
im making my christams card list
if you want one COMMENT and ill get your info lata so yeah lol
so yeah thats the Nikki UPdate for today
peace love and all that good stuff
<333
Nikki
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Friday, November 19th, 2004
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freaking christ
i need a life
heres my invintory
Videos
Blue monday[live mtv spring break]
Fiction[Jam des neiges]
Opticon [farmclub]
Suckerface [jam des neiges]
Dissention [Jam Des Neiges]
Opticon Preformed on Charmed
Bootlegsmy friend took
Suckerface detriot 2004
begining of Dessention 2004
videos from the psp tour
Vague
Opticon
Dissention
Blue Monday
107
Fetisha
other
2 Fiction promo clips
got the life-korn [jay and ryan at the end]
Darkside -Crazytown[ jay in it]
amir of the desert clip [song bout amir]
drop that baby mp3- jays other band wondergirls
Lets go all the way-Jays other band Wondergirls
drop that baby video clip- jay in it
No More Candyass Live mp3 from ohio 99
interviews
Box talk 1999
jay on the egde 2004
a ryan clip from 2004
Presskit from the extra VT cd
julien-k
This Machine
Look at u
LAME
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Thursday, November 18th, 2004
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F:Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
are.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:
Half-smile
Gemstone:
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Sign:
Gemini Planet: Mars Hair Color: Red
Eye Color:
Brown
Quote:
"Appearances can be deceiving."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
brought to you by Quizilla
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aggravated.
depressed.
blank.
creative.
mellow.